When will I stop acting?

Why do I act this way?? Why cant I be normal and be who I truly am??? Am I that useless and can't be true to my friends?? It's tiring...I lost the most important person in my life just coz of my mistake and only thinking about myself...サラング ごめんね。。。。見逃すよ。。coz of me being foolish and I not just hurt myself I hurt you the most....mian ne...jin jja...mian... :'( I'm so stupid...but you didn't know how I was being isolated by you...srsly I hated it...I guess that's when I only thought about myself :/
But right now this is how I only feel and feel like for a long while...

What are you thinking??

Recently I blogged about losing that important friend of mine. Yea...well like I go to the same hospitality class as them and we are getting our work placement choices. We had the free choice. I chose this bistro down at west ryde. The teacher did mention that two ppl can go to this bistro coz it's big enough to have 2 students there. One by one the teacher read down the list and selecting a student that she thinks would suit the job and place. One by one the list becomes shorter. Then finally the choice that I wanted west ryde something somethig something (forgot the name) so without a second thought I raised my hand n noticed that person put up their hand not long after mine...what was that person thinking?? Wouldn't they think about the consequences and know that it would be really awks?? What are they thinking?? My other friends that know about my situation gave me this look of sympathy and would u be alright. I simply couldn't do anything but give them back a smile to show I'm ok don't need to worry about me. But really my true feelings were hiding behind a mask...what should I do?? I'm really scared...I don't wanna have that awkward moment :( or is this a sign from god giving us a second chance to be as close as before?? What am I suppose to do..im so confused...why did that person raise their hand up even if I raised mine first?? What are they thinking??? Someone tell me....

xx cuutetuurtle

Last Day Of Holidays

Hey hey hey~~
Today is the last day of school have u all treasured these last few hrs??  i think i have :)

I went to Eastwood with my mum and granny in the morning to do some grocery shopping which was ok fun but coz of the heat i didn't really enjoy it that muchie :L oh well~~ got to have some good times in Eastwood staring at all the hotties hahaha :)

During the afternoon i arrived back at Hornsby like around 1 ish~~ i met up with the best girl ever Raiza Lu :) we went strolling around the shops coz of free air con~ so many things we did today to list or type out. but one of them was playing the air hockey thingy in timezone >D it was a very close game ^^ feels like you can see the fire coming out  from both of us showing that we wanted to win hahaha. very epik moment we were like screaming and shouting and etc :P but obviously the pro aka me won that LU-ser XD mwuahahaha.

Oh well not much longer till the next day!!! SCHOOL!!! i am sooooo excited coz i am going to new school (St Ives)  so excited get to hang out with the coolest girl ever Annie :) i can't wait man :)

I also added some more videos into http://www.youtube.com/user/BubbleX3Tea :) yea do go and check it out :)

Ok imma go to bed now to get ready for school :) nitenite everyone :33

kkbaix cuutetuurtle

Hey Long Time No Blog

Hey bloggers!! how have you all been?? i havent posted up a blog in ages - about 5 ~ 6 months....thats a really really long time =3= i probs start blogging again since it feels like i have a lot of things to share with everyone :) so much that i have on idea to start from :P i guess i can start from the beginning of this year?!?! actually nahh not bothered to type that much. teehee :33

I guess there is several things i can share with you guys right now or maybe get some help from you guy too :)

The first thing i can share with you all is that my friends and i have created a youtube account :) crazy isnt  it?? we didnt expect to get that into youtube that we start posting up our own videos. come check it out when you are bothered http://www.youtube.com/user/BubbleX3Tea?feature=mhum coz i know that raiza, herschell and i would love you guys just to browse around on our channel. please to tell us what you think of it. thanks guys ;)

Another thing i can share and need help is with my emotions....like its hard to explain but i try my best. you know when like you act happy on the outside but actually inside your heart you are all sad and just want someone to hug and have a shoulder for you to cry on? but then you dont know why your sad and all. it's like i am having that feeling most of the time lately...even i am confused with my own emotions so does that mean when i am with friends my happiness is fake?? or am i actually having a hell of a time?? or just i am lying to myself that this is really fun just to boost my emotions up?? i am soooo confused.

thanks guys!!~
cuutetuurtle

One step closer to freedom

Hey bloggers!!!~
I am back with a second post^^ Lol. It's finally the holidays!!!~ 3 cheers for holidays hiphip hurray hiphip hurray hiphip hurray :) Lol last day of school was bomb apart from the reports it was all great^^ As well as feeling really fat by the end of the day.

Music
We were having this movie day going on. Pplz brought so much  yummy food.
~ Chocolate!~~~
There was so much chocolate that it wasnt funny. i was so full of chocolate by the time i left class. I had like 3 freddo frogs 2 pieces of rocky road and lots of other starburst lollies. *Sighs* eating so much fat but still good ^^
We watch "school of rock"

Marine Studies
We had like another movie thing going on. lol This time we had chocolate cake....i had 2 pieces of cake coz 1 of my friends didnt want to have it. Eating fat once again......TwT
We were watching " finding nemo" seen it so many times that i rmb almost al ltheir lines...

Japanese
In japanese Heschell and i were watching Rachel play poker on her laptop as well as helping her out. Lol how funny gambling in the class with the school laptops. Meh who cares they  suck anyways.We also ate that seaweed rice cracker thingy.

Science
Science we were doing nothing just still there watching random talks from TED.com which was boring but some was really funny. Karen was sitting beside me doing a poster for the table coz we cbb to do anything. Sandy and i were watching grey's anatomy. LOvE IT SO MUCH!!!~~

Lunch
Was watching Herschell and Chan play poker. While txtig Hanson and talking to him randomly coz he called. Then again we went on a high coz of poker.

Maths
We had a party for Mr Harris coz it was his birthday. Had a piece of cake handful of chips 4 sour snakes etc...so fat...lol  but the most funny thing that happened was that we went so high that i fell off a chair andonto tables. Taking photos for a memory in class and had to squish up to fit into the screen so some were standing on tables and chairs while some just stood there. Took so many pictures and then there was this picture where it is a stupid faced one. Jenny then lost her balance coz she didnt know what pose to do and she fell off the chair and fell onto the tables and then on the floor. She pushed me along the way so i lost my balance too and fell down not long after. But it felt like the tables were playing ping pong on me....i fell onto a table then to another. My back hurts ><"

The School ended finally.
To sum up the whole day it was fat...movies...chocolate...cakes...parties...and back pain. Lol teehee ^^
kkbai
cuutetuurtle

Pro-ness

heyheyhey~~
Teehee was playing tennis today with the yr 9s aka the pplz that does paying sport. We started off with some serving which was pretty easy. Had some games afterwards which was so boring coz no one was really trying. Herschell and Rachel were the first pplz who we versed it was 11:3 mine and bonnie's win ^^ The tried their best^^

The second game was versing Brittany and Stacey. They didn't play properly. Mostly swearing and complaining that we served to the wrong court. This is coz Bonnie and i got irritated by them so we didn't bother trying hard for them. Besides they cheated. So it was another win for Bonnie and i ^^ We are so pro teehee.

The last game we played was against Vivienne and Katie. Haha that was the funniest game. We cracked up laughing at each others stupidity. Vivienne is so cute^^ Bonnie and i won the game again. Bonnie and i were chatting and then we hear this screaming from Vivienne because she was happy about losing all 3 games. We obviously cracked up laughing again. But the more funny thing was Katie was shaking her head in shame at Vivienne haha their so cute^^

Home time!!! Bonnie and i caught the bus home from Asquith. We talked about so much things :) I just noticed that Bonnie is actually really open as well.

Oh yea good luck Raiza after school spending time at Jenny's house with Camille^^ Its going to be so much fun ;)
kkbai
cuutetuurtle

A Life Time Lesson #2

Heyheyhey pplz~
I am back with another life time lesson from Raiza (honey) This was like a while ago but was too lazy to type it up onto my blog :) Well lets get onto the lesson. That day we were walking to school from the station. I was walking with Raiza's sister Rina whom was mentioned in lesson #1. Then i hear from Jenny in a loud voice

Raiza is a pervert!!!~

Well duh obviously i turned around and asked why what happened.

This was the reply i got from Jenny.

What wrong? Why is Raiza a prevert?

Raiza is a PERVERT she was full asking if i think my boobs are big enough...

replied Jenny.

HAHAHAHAHA!!! Raiza you pervert~~

i said back.

Nononono let me explain...

said Raiza.
This was when Jenny and i walked away from Raiza coz we were freaked out~~ This obviously shows that Raiza is a pervert and teaches her sister bad things(mentioned in lesson #1).
RAIZA IS A PERVERT!!!!~
Lol we love you sweetie :33 Well we hope ;)
kkbai
cuutetuurtle

Sickness

Heya i haven't been to school for like a week or so now. Hate being sick at the times when i have tests on like the half yearlys...==" You know i so totally love hate doing the tests. Missed everyone at school so muchie :33

Meh the good thing about being sick was i was in bed the whole time watching drama!!~ Love my dramas^^ Felt like a pig for a week but still good.

Bible Study
Teehee gonna talk really Christian here now :33

Teehee i also took the time doing bible study instead of studying for the half yearlys XP Which i don't really find as a bad thing to do ^^ I am building up my relationship with God than doing homework which is good :) Shows that i am being really Christian like bro.

Praying as well that i will get better soon and able to catch on the work i missed out on. As well as many other things like friends :) I am so kind lol ;)

kkbai
cuutetuurtle

NAPLAN

Today i did the NAPLAN along with all the other year 9 girls. We did the language convention and the writing task which was about

What a Mess!?!?

it wasn't really that hard. But we still have 2 more days of NAPLAN. The pain of tests ><" Meh 2 more days then more half yearlys....i am gonna die in this term!!!!

kkbai
cuutetuurtle

Happy Mother's Day

Long time i haven't wrote on my blog~~ but today is a really special day!!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

Haha this is so short :)

A Life Time Lesson #1

I was walking home with raiza(honey) yesterday. i asked her if she like to walk the shops with me until 4. She says yes. So she tell she sister Rina:

Raiza's Hot Tips #1
1. Rina when you see a guy trying to kidnap you. What do you do? You kick his Nuts.
2. Rina when you see a girl trying to kidnap you. What do you do? You pinch her Boobies.

Rina then went home on her own. I started cracking up none stop after that. The best life time lesson ever!!But the funnier thing is...SHE FORGOT TO TELL RINA TO RUN AFTER KICKING OR PINCHING!!

-Sighs- What sister will teach their 9 year old sister that but my honey ^^.
Part 2 of the life time lesson coming soon.
bb4now
cuutetuurtle

Assignments

Its another day when i am doing working on my assignments... STUPID teachers keep giving us non-stop of work and assignments. The even weirder thing i noticed was my teacher actually said to me

You're gonna drown to the bottom of the sea with assignments...

obvious i laughed and walked off because it really wasn't take funny to make me laugh a lot.

Oh yea pinch and a punch for the first day of the month :)

WHO LOVES DOING ASSIGNMENTS ARE WEIRD!! SPECIALLY MESSAGE TO TINA

lol Tina i am joking ily^^ Please don't kill me :33

Work

Today was my first day of work. It was fun but tiring at the same time. Its like being treated like a slave

Eboni go take this, go clean that table.

Bring able to get my break i order Cinnamon toast and a fruit cocktail. Being able to finish eating and help polish the chair and table legs was really painful. Stand up squat down stand up squat down was like the only routine for polishing. Which obviously made my back in pain and feeling light headed for getting up too fast.

Being able to get a 10 mins break after polishing i ran off to church to say hi. Being to kind and volunteering to eat the weetbix dry. More like having it squished in my mouth by Denise when i was saying hi :( It was plain torture. Then the second part was to drink 2 jugs of water as a group. Phoebe who took the cup of water and drank it was like next minute on my face due to her laughing at our convo with the group on who to drink first. I was desperate to get a drink so i had a drink of water afterwards. Our group that i suddenly joined still lost with me who came n joined last minute.

Saying all my hellos and goodbyes i had to sprint back to the cafe~~ Began my work again. Wiping the cups and cutlery. Being so helpful i put them away. Bill(manager's hubby) came along from the kitchen n tickled me which almost made me break severe cups lucky i haven't lifted them much yet. Me obviously want to pay back. But all i did was laugh it off.

Vanessa and her bf came by the cafe to grab some lunch. They were of SWEET together. Full talking in a lovingly way. V's family came by as well. It's like a family lunch together which was MORE SWEETER THAN EVER.

Almost 3pm. Mum finally comes to pick me up. The meanest thing ever she specially asked if she can not work the same shifts as me. I haven't even work with her yet in the cafe and she doesn't want me already. Stupid Asian parent...

Me being left off like an hour early with my pay was the best thing ever. Apart from the sore back from standing up then squatting down and up again.

Finally got home IT WAS HEAVEN!! First thing i did was get changed and lie on bed. Next moment I realized I fell asleep on the bed from exhaustion.

kaibai ^-^

Australia

What does it mean to be an Australian?
Is it having a Sunday barbe with family and friends?
Or is barbecuing now not part of the trends?
Is it rooting for wins in the sports we play?
And if it's a lost, is it still okay?

Is it accepting multicultralism, and thus no one hates?
Or is everyone and anyone, they are all your mates?
Is it kindness and generosity, do these define us?
And if something does't go our way, will all we do is cuss?

Australia is known as the land down under
Is geography the only reason for the name, I wonder?
And of course every Aussie is aware
Most can't sing Advance Australia Fair!

by cuutetuurtle

Friends

Friends, there are many different types
From those who take advantage of you
To those who you consider to be true
Which type of friends do you have?

There are those who want to be your friend
But they just use you for their own personal gain
There are those who would never pretend
And will always help to ease your pain

Friends, diversity is the key
From those who live next door
To those you have never seen before
Which type of friends do you have?

Friends can be people be they near or far
It matters not their colour or race
For friends they like you for who you are
Whether or not you have a pretty face

Friends are limitless, just like the sky
If you've got no friends, you better wonder why
For friends are those who guide your way
And can brighten up your gloomiest day

By CuuteTuurtle